This reminds me of something, that we must not beat ourselves up too much, if we find that we sometimes have to repeat the same dramas or patterns or crises again and again in our lives. Sometimes there is a storyline that we need to keep recreating (even disastrously, perhaps!) until we can work our way through what we needed to learn.
Some of us may have to play out the same unfortunate storyline dozens of times over until we can slowly learn how to maybe not do it that way anymore.
Which can be painful, but what an amazing accomplishment, when we finally GET IT. And then we never have to do it again. (Whatever "it" happens to be. And we all have an "it")
So ride that merry-go-round as many times as you need to..until you finally learn how to safely to step off the thing.
Then forgive yourself, forgive everyone else, and never look back.
21 January 2014, inside tired ambiance
(Inspired by "Dhamma talk with Pema Chodron" ....)
